Sabse peeche hum khade

everything... all around me
my head.. my life.
all seems to go in a 'garbled gibberish'
why does it have to be so complicated.
am i supposed to b like this?? or is it just my belief that makes me heavy and morose inside.
what is it.. it has come to a level that the more i hide it the more it grows stronger inside. i cannot open it. it is a waste and is dangerous. it is not explosive but is corrosive. and it is taking the toll. i dont have anything to comfort me that i normally do. coz of the circumstances i am in now. well in a particular perspective they are weak man's option. i dont care.
tears are words heart cant say.. sad that my heart has become mute.
i waited ...
can u hear me???
the hardest truth is wen i try to run i know nobody will follow me.

in my brother's voice
"teri aankhon ka jaadu, poori duniya par hai..
duniya ki is bheed mein, sabse peeche hum khade"

in my voice
"The ocean is full cause everyones crying,
The full moon is looking for friends at high tide.
The sorrow grows bigger when the sorrows denied.
I only know my mind. I am mine."

but you know.. my voice is a mask.. it is just a decoy.

the man laughs today. laughs looking at me. he thinks its all done. but not yet.