The Closer, The Farther.

As the old saying goes, "When the chase ends, so does the fun".

I'm too caught up anyway with the set of problems which could petentially hamper me while I am in the US, worried about how things in my life could get out of my control
Thinking more about my responsibilities than ever before.
Thinking that will I also become like those NRI sons they show on the TV, like my own relative who changed with time.
Thinking about how am I going to burn so much of my parents hard and honestly earned savings of the last 26 years, saying to myself that its "OK".
But at the same time I think about the great possibilities that lie ahead.
About how i can set precedent in my family and match up to those who are already at that level.
About finally being at a place with no limitations where only mu effort and wisdom will be my limit.
Occasionally I look back on life, people I have met, get lost in a train of thoughts and memories, and then smile with the thought of how i will be leaving them . And like always, sadness soon engulfs the thought process.

You asked me how am I feeling now. I guess this is it.

Hille le.

The song gives me wierd long lost feelings. Feelings not close to anything ive felt in the recent times. Feelings that ive missed. Feelings that make me forget all the human concerns and worries. And guess what Im not worried now. Nor am i concerned.
Hille le is a song which defines good. I miss those times. The times when atrocities came down with a crash.
Expression is such an important thing. Yet so many people lack it. It makes you what you are. Yet reveals as much as you want. Each thud of the tabla reveals and expresses so much about what the person wants to convey. Its a high which cannot be felt otherwise.
When the song narrows down from a high note to the low one so smoothly as it feels im sitting in the same train to ahmedabad.
Life will never be the same again after these odd 16 days. Yet im not sad. Ive shed the tears I had to. And now I think Im ready to let go.
He is the one person ive always looked upto. A person, whom from my heart I believe that whatever he does cannot be wrong. This song reminds me of him.
I wish this life was what you expected it to be. I guess its always too much to ask.